These past couple of weeks have been pretty good. Spending a lot more time with the family. My kids are awesome.

I have not performed in a very long time. I am trying to get myself back into it and  revive some old material and work on some new stuff as well. I have some great fresh ideas  but now I just need to put them into action.

Also trying to get some new art pieces finished. My goal is to try to get some pieces in a gallery at some point this year. But right now in terms of my art I am in kind of a creative stand still. It happens from time to time. The creativity will be back in no time. Always keeping my mind and my eyes open for inspiration.

Well things are starting go go pretty good. At least in some ways. One of the good things is that I have not been drunk in over a week. That is the longest time not drunk in literally years. I have gotten so much done and my energy level is much better. Not to mention not having to try to remember what I did the night before or who I might of pissed off. My mood has been better. Well the last few days it has been. The first couple of days It was probably very difficult to be around me. Hell I couldn't stand me. But now things are looking better.  I can't let me guard down though . As an addict this struggle will last the rest of my life and I got to get through it day by day.

On a different note. My damn car is shot. It would cost more to fix it than it would to buy a new one. And I can't afford that either right now. This shit sucks. But no worries. I won't be down forever. I am working a little harder now that I have a more clear mind and am slowly but surely getting my shit together.

Well today ended up as a good day again. Not the best day of my life but still a good one. Not drunk for one more day. That is always good. I have been thinking a lot since I have been sober and I think I have finally found my motivation to do great things. Well I didn't just discover it. It has always been there. My two wonderful kids. But I have been giving a lot of thought to the life they have and the life they deserve. I have decided to put the time I put into drinking and give it to the time I should be working to make their lives better and easier.  As an addict I need to be addicted to something. So I think instead of it being a bottle it will now be being an awesome father . I have some big plans and hope I can and will follow through with them this time around. I have no worries though. I am more confident than ever. I have more drive and motivation and passion than I have had in years. Life is not going to start being easy peasy but I know it is going to start being a hell of a lot better. And I am very excited about it. For once in my life , I can't wait until tomorrow.  I plan on making it a little better each day.

The beginning of something greater

     Never real sure how to start a new blog. I guess by saying (for those of you who don't know) who I am. My name is London. I am a struggling artist and entertainer (magician / mentalist). I live with my girlfriend of almost 16 years (Amanda) and our two children Paris 11yrs and Jack 4yrs. I am lucky to have them. However I should be a lot further in my life professionally and emotionally. Unfortunately I struggle with addiction and have for over 12 years. But I feel that this is truly the time in my life where I am going to take control and be as awesome as I should and could be. My addiction has been what has held me back for so many years and I am ready to move forward and not just spin my wheels. I am ready to give it my all. I have stepped back and am currently taking a good look at my life and my self. Making new goals and resetting my priorities.I have made a list of things I want to do and try in my life and going to spend each day doing those things instead of spending it drinking from sun up to sun up again. I think this is finally it. Things are finally about to change for the better. So look out world London is back.